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i always try to stay one step ahead of myself and make plans so that i have a path to success. but maybe i’ve overplanned, cuz it feels like life is just floating by me. i’m too slow to catch up sometimes, but i’m still trying to make sure i don’t get caught up in my own shit and unprepared for life.
i’ve got too many plans, dreams, hopes, goals, and things i want to accomplish to stop now. i’ve got a whole life planned for after this phase in my life, i just need to stay on track… but i wish i could just take a break, without losing all the ground i’ve broken for myself…
i wish life could go faster and slower at the same time. FASTER- so i can already be at the time in my life where i’m successful, accomplished, and not needing to stress out because of work, school, and general panic. i wish i was already where i want to be and who i’ll become. SLOWER- so i can sit around and enjoy this time in my life where things are relatively carefree, selfish, inexplicably fun, and full of new and exciting things.
thankfully- sometimes, i can have the best of both worlds =)
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Matt and I went to church together for the first time in a LONG time. I’ve personally been having an internal struggle with my own faith. It wants to come out, but I’m too lazy to do anything about it. But after HE blessed Matt with a job out of nowhere, we both knew it was time to spend some time thanking him.
Matt: I’m really glad we went to church today babe. I’m glad I finally got to tell the Lord thank you for helping us and making sure we’re always okay.
It freaking melted my heart. And helping him find his faith is only doing more for me to strengthen and maintain my faith that God is Good ALL THE TIME!
My heart is ready to renew my faith, but my mind and body aren’t. I don’t want to rush into it, lest it become meaningless and routine. And I know HE isn’t going to rush me because HE already knows that HE is the light at the end of the tunnel where I’m always running towards.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.
=) my soul feels happy =)